Thursday, August 26, 2010

Person in the mind

I don’t quite sure I’d be write this though Imma one of people cant told the fact of their own live. Fact is, I writing right now, woud be ready to share. I always have a small wish in a big dream. People want others. Person wants significant other to make their live be something. Complete the incomplete, strenghten the weak. unluckily im the one with those last words. Desperate coming on when I cant tell anybody how lucky they are. How lucky they can have what they want, reach their wish in each of their step they didn’t recognize,the one they love. I did, but then again, fate’s coming through. I cant be with someone with something he brought inside-out, Religion. Im actually wont explain bout that. I do want someone with whoever he is, he put me through all this. Through all the worst thing I had, through the most unuseful time I got. The only I have is super power. My super power would be to draw something and it comes alive. So I draw my future lover. Only problem is.. I don’t know what they look like.

With that desperate I though will be come up disappear, I started something new. Something unsual to me. I started liking the significant other who I truly cant love in every situation I admitting. Like I got something in boxes and I can enjoying each the box with every strength they have. I start to make up my mind that im liking those box even I cant reach the boxes. Like Im glad to just staring at them everytime they talk to me. As I told the box, they are who people called “significant others”. I didn’t even know who they are, what they “actually” look like, and HOW THEIR FEELING INTO MINE. Im just, glad to saying Im liking with no reasons, and with the reasons I cant tell with my mind. Theyre the person in my mind. I keeping the hush, keeping quite with every single smile they talk to me in screen.

I had a wish, lil wish that hard to coming through..

He’ll be telling me something that could make my chest beating fast and my stomach feels so butterflies. With he'd saying

“When the evening shadows and the stars appear. And there is no one there to dry your tears. I could hold you for a million years. To make you feel my love”

The fact is.. im happy with my person in my mind J

Have you ever?

Have you ever?

Have you ever been at the time when you feel like living in a castle, huge room, that you supposed to have tons of happiness, you just living a loneliness instead. All seems no real. All seems you cant have. And all seems fiction whoever lives in the town. Your bestfriend exchange to be a lonely window, the screen, and the wall. You feel better like when you speak alone to the wall, to the ceiling. The one you come speak when needed cant anymore. The one you think can be there, is them.. who always cant be there. The one that you give you a birth, likewise give you this cruel things. I know sounds crazy, even God you think will help you, he didn’t even hear you (yet). Really, though? Like you being extrovert in crowd, the same time so introvert in your own palace. And you don’t want everyone knows what you really feeling instead of make them believe youre glad as who you are. Otherwise theyre not feeling yours. Most of the time you give your head with antusiasm this wont last long. But then again, youre wrong. No one lives there. Your world, is your world..